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Happy Holidays, Thank you, and Sorry

Hey f-list!

Just wanted to wish you all a very Happy Holiday season - hope you have the best of times with your friends and family close to you :)

So, out of the blue yesterday, my LJ notifications went berserk. I realized how so many of you've been leaving me gorgeous v-gifts! :) For a whole minute I kept staring at my profile page, wondering if it was like a virus attack or something. Jeez. I'm stunned and overwhelmed and so very very grateful that you guys thought of me. From the bottom of my heart, thank you guys, so so much!! *group hug* :)

Finally, I think I owe everyone an apology for being AWOL and for not keeping up with your LJs. I probably also owe you an explanation. Without getting into sordid details of my life that would totally bore you to death, let me just say I'm going through a rough patch personally. I used to think fandom was my refuge from RL back when RL was.. well, it wasn't so bad in hindsight. Fact it was great. But now it is really really bad, and yet fandom no longer seems able to distract me sufficiently. Like not at all. Strange.. everything I knew about myself, all my assumptions and things I once took for granted no longer apply. Wow I ended up boring you anyway hehe. Sorry.

Once again, have a lovely and safe Holidays everyone! And a fantabulous New Year! :)


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Hi Sweetie, I really hope you are ok and don't forget I am here if you need to talk about anything at all.

Big hugs


Thanks sweetheart! Your note's already put a big smile on my face :) Hope you're doing well and enjoying the holidays! *hugs*

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Ah you know how it is sweetie, periods of disillusionment *sighs*. But hey I'm still hanging in there, and writing some, and still waiting for SPN to come back from hiatus. So it's not all bad, I guess. How are you doing love? Holiday spirit getting to you yet? :) *smishes*

Sorry to hear that you are going through a rough patch, I can empathize with you; nothing (in fandom or RL) holds the same level of interest for me as it did prior to my dad's death in September.

I hope things improve for you before the holidays. Have a good Christmas and a wonderful new year. x

Hey sweetheart!! It's so good to hear from you. I'm sorry to hear about your dad, I didn't know. *hugs* Life sucks in different ways for different folks doesn't it?

Hope you're having a good holiday season hon.

There is no problem being absent, darlin'. That's how things go! We'll be here when you return. =)

[watches the video with dimples, bangs and tongue. Holy god, you're trying to kill me... it's a secret plot, isn't it?]

Thanks so much Jen, you're way too kind to me. And yep its a secret plot alright - to make you keep coming back to my LJ hehe ;)


Happy holidays, I hope whatever that's bothering you will be solved eventually after the season of hope.

Sorry I didn't catch up with the gifts-sending stuff...I totally forgot that it was Christmas season O_o, please do forgive me because I don't really celebrate it like you do.


Hey sweetie! Thanks so much and I hope you're having a great December yourself :) I don't much celebrate either. Esp not this year. But hey it's an excuse to get drunk and eat candy and not work, so yayyy :D:D

Oh, darling, I'm so sorry to hear about RL. I'm always here if you need me.

Hey sweetie. You know how it goes with me and my RL heh.. waiting for the pendulum to swing back, hopefully it will soon.

So sorry I haven't been keeping up with your LJ like I used to. I hope you're doing well and enjoying the holiday season *hugs* :)

Hey, hon. I'm sorry to hear life isn't going so well for you, but I understand. Been there too fairly recently. Just know that you DO have folks here that love you and think of you often. I'll be sending warm and positive thoughts your way for a Christmas full of peace and love.

Hey sweetie, thank you so much for your lovely note and warm thoughts! It's so great to be able to talk to you guys after so long I'm wondering why I didn't do it before heh.

And how are you doing sweetie? Hope you're having a great holiday season with your family and loved ones *hugs*

That's what friends are for. We are each other's support network.

And I'm doing pretty good. Work's been busy but not stressful so I can't complain. ANd I'm gearing up to tackle making Christmas dinner this year. Yikes. ;)

Wow the whole Christmas dinner really? I'm utterly useless in the kitchen so this sounds like a super huge endeavor to me. Good luck hon, I hope it turns out to be the best Christmas dinner ever! :) *hugs*

I knew I'd forgotten to kick your butt for the missing chapter. But I can understand how sometimes RL can do that for you. =/

Hope everything gets back on track soon and I wish you refreshing and fabulous holidays and a lucky and happy new year! *holiday snuggles*

*sheepish* Hey before you start to kick my butt, I have news for you - I finally did finish the bloody epilogue! Yay :) I'll post it in a few minutes. I hope you like it. Writing it has been a big source of distraction and contentment these past few days.

Happy holidays to you too sweetie. Hope you're well! *snuggles back*

Aaaaaaaaawwww how sweet! You don't think I could've actually kicked your butt, right? ;-)

Well I'll check that Epilogue out in a few minutes then! YAY!!! =)

You too, hope you'll have happy holidays indeed and that RL is back to normal again!

Happy holidays honey, and big hugs for all you're going through. You don't have to be here all the time, I'll still love you all the way from here. :) Hope things will go well for you. Missed you. :X

Hey sweetheart! Thank you so much for your words, you've already put a big stupid grin on my face :) *hugs and kisses* Hope you're doing well and enjoying the holiday season!

No explanation is needed, sweetie. Sh** happens and unfortunately it happens to nice people I know and not just strangers. Take care and hopefully when things improve for you we may hear from you more often (I'd certainly like that).

Hey you! Thanks so much sweetie. I don't know if this latest crisis in my life will blow over anytime soon, so I'm just trying to get bloody used to it. And hey I'm still around, just not so much heh.

How are you doing sweetie? I hope everything's ok at your end and you're enjoying the holidays :) *hugs and kisses*

I'm good and actually just started 4 weeks holiday so I'm nice and relaxed although not really in a Festive Season mood. Nothing going on - just not into it this year. Hope you have a merry season and get to spend a lot of time with the people you love.

I'm so sorry to hear things aren't going well for you in your personal life. When I read your post, I felt a connection with the things you said. I can remember when I first was reading fanfic to escape from RL issues, but then there was a period of time where RL got so much worse, that fanfic didn't help at all. For me it's back to the place where fanfic does help, and I hope that the same will be true for you too eventually. I hope that things in your RL will settle down, and you can be happier again. I wish you all good things for the Holiday season.

Hey sweetie! Its so good to hear from you. And wow, you do know what I mean then don't you? Either I'm changing or fanfic really isn't the safe haven I thought it was. I still enjoy it tho, and these past few days I even got some writing done. Just hope to bring back the same enthusiasm I used to have once heh.

Thanks for your note hon. Hope you're doing great and having a great holiday season yourself :) *hugs*

I love you so much, and I'll be here waiting for you to be able to come back with a lighter soul.


merry christmas, happy holidays to you too <3

Awww, thank you so much sweetheart! I'm so lucky to have friends like you :) *hugs and kisses* Hope the holiday season's treating you well! :)

Just wanted to say how sorry I am you're going thru a rough patch. You should know that your fic has helped me thru many the holiday season-induced rough patches! And I think of all the fics in any of my favorite fandoms, In the Beginning is my all time favorite! Feel better.

I am an idiot. An absolute blooming idiot!! You should kick me hon. So so sorry this one got lost in my stupid overflowing inbox!!

Thank you so so much for your thoughtful comment. I'm reading it now and it's still working like a balm to past wounds that never really healed well. Okay that's a bit too mushy hehe.. but, just.. thanks hon.


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