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cyndrarae

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JM: Young tilted head closeup
cyndrarae

Upset ranting and a question. Actually, several...

I have a request for you guys..

Since you were kind enough to friend me, I assume you have been reading the stuff I write yeah? So I guess you would be the best people to answer this question. Umm... okay see there is this author (who shall forever remain unnamed) that I used to like. And now I don't anymore, because I just realized that all her writing,  ALL of her fifty something series are exactly the same - DEPRESSING.

And dark and hopeless. She keeps breaking the characters down, puts them through so much angst and torture until there is nothing left. And then she does it some more. Even the sex isn't hot, it's just kinda... sad. Dubious consent at best. And I have a point I swear. Okay, let me try again.

See this author... the way she writes is so riveting and so bloody... GOOD that... I can't help but get emotionally involved. I start to relate more than I want to. But the thing is, the plot - the characters' circumstances just keep getting worse and worse and it doesn't get better, ever. Even at the end when the big bad is defeated and it's time to start healing and stuff, it's like... she doesn't really want to go there, where things are getting better. She touches upon them like briefly then shies away to a new torture series. The bad parts are graphic and excruciatingly detailed. And I wonder why she writes the way she does. Every writer has demons of his or her own that they're trying to exorcise through this creative outlet.

I feel for her, I really do. But I cannot put myself through this again.

I cannot, will not read her ever again because she just brings me down so horribly. I keep thinking about it and fret about it and smoke a couple more than my usual limit for the day and sometimes, when I'm three or more glasses of wine down like now, I start to cry and have to literally smack myself in the forehead to remind me that it's not real. That it's only fiction.

Yeah, that's how good she is. So.. I'm done with her. Which brings me back to my original reason for this post.

Now I write a considerable amount of angst myself right. And clearly it is a level of pathos I am personally comfortable with, just like the writer mentioned above is comfortable with hers. But what do YOU guys as READERS think? Have I written something, anything so far that has brought you down? Upset you somehow? Made you feel like - "Dude, this is way too painful for me." ? Or "Dude, what is this girl's childhood trauma??" Or "Okay. Reading that one was a mistake." ???

Because, I don't think I want to be that kind of writer that makes people sad. I want to write happy stuff, optimistic stuff. Altho realistically speaking, I suck at fluff. But the least I can do is... write something hopeful you know. And not offload my personal demons onto my readers. I just don't want to do that.

So... umm... I need to know what you guys think? And if there is a piece of my writing that upsets you?

I probably won't take it down for the sake of maintaining my archive to show progress made (bleh if any!) through the years. But it would really help me understand myself and my writing a little more. This is not an attempt to go professional in any way haha. My stupid job and my husband and my dog keep me busy plenty enough thank you. I just... I'm curious you know?

Is there any reason for why we write angst in the first place? And why do we even read it?? What the fuck do we get out of these sad, tragic stories????

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awwww .... hangovers suck:(( *hugs and hands you dry toast*, i would love for you to write more, but seriously no pressure, i just miss the sentiment...you know sometimes an unfinished good story could be more devastating then an angst filled fest;)

i read this story once it was fucking pain through and through and it was about million chapters but i still kept reading....was walking around all dazed and if she wouldn't just stop writing, guess i would have stuck for more...even though it never went more them a kiss and a hug ...EVER....frustration....hell YEEE!!! but maybe were all a bit of suckers for punishment and feeling low is our way to FEEL and feel hard!!!;) or maybe she's just really good with her words;D
but never mind that , i do love the flow and movement..i actually took a serious note of it about a month ago when we went to this jazz concert....the guy was amazing and could improvise on a whim....but there was one piece that was just not moving it was going a bit forward but immediately going back...over and over...i felt so annoyed and on edge, but NO fulfillment or joy....just stress....
hmmmm...maybe that's another point for her readers...it's like always staying PREorgazmic but never cumming....

on a brighter note...i brought you a present!;D
it's not mine, it was made by winchestergirl and i kinda nicked it....but it was just so sweet!!!!;DD
http://pics.livejournal.com/ladymadness/pic/002dh3f4

hugs babe...feel better;D

Awwww, so cute!!! Thank you so much sweetheart *hugs and kisses* :)

pre-orgasmic but never cumming! ROTFL!! That sounds so hot if it was Jared/Sam in this state, and for hours!! *cues evil laughter* Thanks for the visual hon ;-D :-D

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