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cyndrarae

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cyndrarae

Upset ranting and a question. Actually, several...

I have a request for you guys..

Since you were kind enough to friend me, I assume you have been reading the stuff I write yeah? So I guess you would be the best people to answer this question. Umm... okay see there is this author (who shall forever remain unnamed) that I used to like. And now I don't anymore, because I just realized that all her writing,  ALL of her fifty something series are exactly the same - DEPRESSING.

And dark and hopeless. She keeps breaking the characters down, puts them through so much angst and torture until there is nothing left. And then she does it some more. Even the sex isn't hot, it's just kinda... sad. Dubious consent at best. And I have a point I swear. Okay, let me try again.

See this author... the way she writes is so riveting and so bloody... GOOD that... I can't help but get emotionally involved. I start to relate more than I want to. But the thing is, the plot - the characters' circumstances just keep getting worse and worse and it doesn't get better, ever. Even at the end when the big bad is defeated and it's time to start healing and stuff, it's like... she doesn't really want to go there, where things are getting better. She touches upon them like briefly then shies away to a new torture series. The bad parts are graphic and excruciatingly detailed. And I wonder why she writes the way she does. Every writer has demons of his or her own that they're trying to exorcise through this creative outlet.

I feel for her, I really do. But I cannot put myself through this again.

I cannot, will not read her ever again because she just brings me down so horribly. I keep thinking about it and fret about it and smoke a couple more than my usual limit for the day and sometimes, when I'm three or more glasses of wine down like now, I start to cry and have to literally smack myself in the forehead to remind me that it's not real. That it's only fiction.

Yeah, that's how good she is. So.. I'm done with her. Which brings me back to my original reason for this post.

Now I write a considerable amount of angst myself right. And clearly it is a level of pathos I am personally comfortable with, just like the writer mentioned above is comfortable with hers. But what do YOU guys as READERS think? Have I written something, anything so far that has brought you down? Upset you somehow? Made you feel like - "Dude, this is way too painful for me." ? Or "Dude, what is this girl's childhood trauma??" Or "Okay. Reading that one was a mistake." ???

Because, I don't think I want to be that kind of writer that makes people sad. I want to write happy stuff, optimistic stuff. Altho realistically speaking, I suck at fluff. But the least I can do is... write something hopeful you know. And not offload my personal demons onto my readers. I just don't want to do that.

So... umm... I need to know what you guys think? And if there is a piece of my writing that upsets you?

I probably won't take it down for the sake of maintaining my archive to show progress made (bleh if any!) through the years. But it would really help me understand myself and my writing a little more. This is not an attempt to go professional in any way haha. My stupid job and my husband and my dog keep me busy plenty enough thank you. I just... I'm curious you know?

Is there any reason for why we write angst in the first place? And why do we even read it?? What the fuck do we get out of these sad, tragic stories????

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Now you've got me all paranoid. Are you talking about me? I swear I only write happy endings! And I insist on it from JF fanfic writers!

Anyway, I hear where you're coming from. This one girl wrote the most horrible torture fic I've ever read and it angered me so much that I had to post about it on my journal, too. I guess for some people with bad pasts writing is very cathartic, however I think when you're dealing with touchy subject matter in such a brutal way, perhaps it's best to keep such fiction to yourself. As a writing exercise, if you will.

I'm not into Supernatural so I haven't read your fics in that fandom (I'm sure they're great) but of course I've read your X-men and I think you write sensitively, which to me is what writing angst is supposed to be. It's not about bashing people over the head with hurt, it's inviting the reader to experience it, too, in their own way. I think you do that well, and never go over the top.

What? How could you even think it's you hon? For one, the sex is ALWAYS hot on JF :P That's an immediate disqualifier right there lol.

I guess for some people with bad pasts writing is very cathartic, however I think when you're dealing with touchy subject matter in such a brutal way, perhaps it's best to keep such fiction to yourself. As a writing exercise, if you will.

Yeah but maybe the author doesn't even know the impact her writing has, because no one is telling her. Hell I'm not saying anything. I wouldn't know how to - "sorry but please stop writing shit that makes me wanna cry"? I don't think so :P
And I'm sure she does have readers who don't mind the extreme angst. Different strokes and all that.

It's not about bashing people over the head with hurt, it's inviting the reader to experience it, too, in their own way. I think you do that well, and never go over the top.

*sighs* Thanks sweetie. You have no idea how huge a relief that is. I need happy endings period. And a tolerable limit to how much torture the characters go through. I'm a perv, but hey I'm not completely evil :P

cheers hon.

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