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cyndrarae

Rebelling against Reality since 2003

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TVD: Damon sick with vervain
cyndrarae

Ramblings.. mostly inconsequential.

1. Sitting at Heathrow airport (again) waiting for my flight to DC. Will be there for the next couple of months maybe. For work. Not pleasure. I should be more excited - I've always loved the East Coast and Manhattan must be my favorite city in the whole world. Maybe its just way too early in the morning to care. 

2. Yet another relationship seems to be on its way to ending in a Grecian tragedy. I used to think self-fulfilling prophecies were bullshit, but maybe there is some truth to it. Why else do I keep falling for the same lies, hooking up with the same type of passive-aggressive, egotistical, mentally abusive men over and over again? First guy, I can blame him squarely. Second one too, maybe. But the third? Fourth? Definitely my fault. This DC trip comes at a good time after all. I need to be alone for some time, and maybe get some help on how to break this vicious pattern I'm stuck in. 

3. Airports have a way of making you feel strangely insignificant - so many people milling about, so many of them going the same way you are, cramped in tight places inside a 777 (yeah flying economy thanks to the uh, economy),  you're surrounded and yet you're completely alone. Surprisingly this feeling doesn't scare me as much as it used to. They say if you feel lonely when you're alone, you're in bad company. I like this quote. And I think I've finally reached a stage where I'm completely comfortable being all by myself. I could do with a dog, tho.

4. I can't stand Glee. I just can't. Sorry, I just had to get it out there :)  

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Your #4 made me snort coffee everywhere. So not pretty! And I totally agree with you, think I made it through 10 minutes before giving up.

Things have a way of sorting themselves out when you least expect it, so Mr. Right could well be in DC but at the same time, some alone time also sounds good.

Have a safe trip and hopefully you'll feel more excited once you are there. x

Thanks hon *hugs* I'm not looking for Mr. Right (who I'm sure will inevitably turn into Mr. Wrong) in DC for sure tho :) Just looking to focus on work, socialize with friends, and spend time with myself and ON myself for the next 3 months.

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