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SPN: Sam & Dean "My Everything"
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SPN fic: Sounds in Silence (gen)

Title: Sounds in Silence
Summary: Gen. A possible future drabble. Sequel to “Touched by Darkness”. Dean and Bobby perform a powerful ancient ritual.
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 1032
Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing. Not for profit.
Author’s Notes: What do you know, a pattern just emerged – this is now called the senses!verse, *rolls eyes* oh whatever :P


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Dean waves a hand rabidly through the smoke, desperate to peel it away and with it hopefully, the fog shrouding Sam’s mind as well. Good thing he disarmed the detector before they started.

Bobby coughs as he hurries back towards the bed, looks down at the frail boy still as ever, eyes glazed and moist but fixed – relentless.

Blank.

They wait. And wait… until it’s pointless to wait anymore.

“You said this’d work.”

“It was supposed to! The ritual’s a powerful one, meant to set his consciousness free. I don’t know what happened…”

Dean starts to pace, slow at first then faster. Until the length of the room isn’t enough to contain his frustration and he storms out the doors, slamming them close behind him.

Bobby is crestfallen, he’s never been so drastically off the mark before. Maybe he is slipping in his old age. “I’m sorry, my boy,” he whispers as he gathers his things. “I’m so sorry.”

Dean sits on the floor outside, slumped against the wall with his face buried in his hands. Bobby knew he wouldn’t go too far, he never does. Doesn’t even look up as the old man walks past him to leave. He's simply too furious, too desperate too… too defeated, and Bobby seems a good mark to blame right about now.

Why the hell didn’t it work? How long is he supposed to stand by and just watch while Sam slowly wastes away? Dean thumps his head back against the wall hard, struggling to swallow down the tears that refuse to be stopped any more.

Dean… are you there…?

He straightens up, hardens his face and heart once again. He can’t afford to fall apart, not now.

Please don’t leave…

Not when his little brother needs him to be strong. Dean picks himself off the floor and goes back to Sam’s room. “Hey, bro. Miss me?”

The smile doesn’t have to be forced, it comes automatically when he sees Sam’s right hand twitching for contact. Dean quickly entwines the cold fingers with his before taking his usual seat by Sam.

“I’m here. Ain’t going nowhere. I know it didn’t work tonight but we’re not giving up, you hear me? Bobby’s working on it.”

Don’t be mad…

Dean sighs, pushes the hair back from Sam’s forehead… he’d cut it a couple months ago so it won’t fall into Sam’s eyes anymore but the damn thing sure grew fast.

“It’s not anyone’s fault. And I’m not mad, just… go back to sleep, okay Sammy?”

Andrea the orderly shakes him awake next morning, and the first thing Dean does is check on Sam. His eyes are open, slanted to his left looking out the window for a change. Dean sighs, winces as he straightens his tortured back up.

“How long’s he been awake?”

“About an hour. You should get some rest, Mr. Carpenter,” she says, pulling open the rest of the curtains to let in the sun while also quietly checking him out. “You don’t look so good.”

Dean smirks and yawns all at once. “Somehow, I find that hard to believe. And I told you before Andy, call me Dean.”

The girl bites her lip trying hard not to smile but doesn’t get to respond as Stephen, the second orderly assigned to the Carpenters, wheels the bath-trolley into the room. Which is Dean’s cue to take his much-needed break. He stands up, stretches and picks up his jacket then gives Sam’s hand a quick squeeze.

“I’ll see ya when you’re pretty, kiddo.” Winks at Andrea and walks out of the room.

The shivering starts at the base of his spine, crawling up rapidly the same time as his knees morph into jelly. Dean grips a wall just in time before he hits the floor, gasping for breath and struggling to identify the source of his sudden… fear? No.

Panic. Distress, like he’s never felt before. An utter helplessness that prickles his eyes and threatens to paralyze him from head to toe. But what could possibly be so wrong?

Dean… don’t go. I need you through this… please…

Dean frowns, surely there’s nothing to worry about right? Rapidly runs through the sequence of tasks in his head just to make sure – they’ll take the IVs out first, the monitor wires next and the catheter in the end, strip off the pajamas and then Stephen will pick Sam up and put him in the tub. Of course Andy will make sure the water is just right before he does and… damn it they’ve been doing this for months. Then where the hell is all this anxiety coming from?

// The ritual’s a powerful one, meant to set his consciousness free. //

Dean spins on his heels, running in and nearly startling Stephen as he’s about to slip one arm under Sam’s knees.

“Wait!”

“Something wrong, Mr. Carpenter?”

Sam’s eyelids flutter, his breathing faster than normal. Dean looks into his brother’s face and knows he did the right thing coming back.

“Guys, do you mind if I stick around and help?” Without waiting for an answer he gathers Sam into his arms. “I’m sorry, kiddo. I didn’t know. It’ll never happen again, I promise you, okay? Okay Sammy?”

The orderlies look at each other, but wisely keep their mouths shut, knowing better than to argue when the man’s in full-on overprotective big-brother mode. They let Dean recheck the temperature and stand back as he lowers Sam into the bathwater.

“He seems more responsive today, Mr. Carpenter.”

Dean smiles, shaking his head as Sam on a spastic motor reflex, attempts to dip his head under the water. "Ah, you big dufus," he softly chides, making Andrea giggle.

So maybe this is the best the ritual could do. Or maybe Dean’s finally lost his marbles, and is hearing imaginary sounds in the never-ending silence?

Call Bobby… apologize…

Better yet, maybe this is the voice of his conscience. Which would mean Sam again… if it weren’t for Sammy, he’d have lost his way years ago.

Dean rolls up his sleeves, opens the bottle of shampoo and gets to work.

“Hey it’s not my fault your damn hair grows like wild weed, kiddo! Yes, Yes. I’ll cut it again.”


***Sequel***

A/N: Pls let me know what you think?

I seriously think I'm falling in love with this little series.

Thanks! I'm glad you like it hon.

oh this is so good! please write more and fix Sammy?? plz??

Thank you so much sweetie :) There will be 2 more parts, hopefully soon and yes Sammy will be fixed. I promise *hugs* :)

Wah! You're really breaking me with this series.

*cries*

Awww sweetheart! *hugs you tight* :) Thank you so much for reading hon. Will fix them soon, I promise.

I want more, it just keeps getting more interesting. Loving it so far hun!

Thank you sweetie :) I'm so glad you're enjoying this series.

Oh, this is marvelous! The first broke my heart. The second left my guts in a messy heap on the floor, but this gives just a glimmer of hope.

Thank you so much for reading! Yes there is definitely a glimmer of hope in this one.. and it should only get stronger soon. Glad you're liking it hon. cheers :)

Again with the 'ripping my heart out' thing. ;________; Tell me you're going to give the poor boys a happy ending. ... *wibbles*

:) There will definitely be a happy ending hon.. as happy as I'm capable of, at least *thinks* Kidding! ;) Thank you so much for reading hon.

I'm seriously loving this little series of stories. I'm really hoping that you fix Sam...it would just be plain cruel not to!

I know! And I will fix him, I promise :) Thank you so much for reading hon, glad you're enjoying it.

C'mon Sammy!! Gotta get better fast!!!

He will, soon hon. Thank you for reading! :)


Oi, with the cliffhangers! Every installment leaves me on tenterhooks, I'm telling you.

Excellent addition.

What cliffhangers? *looks around innocently* ;) I'll try to resolve things in the next installment hon. Thank you so much for reading!

Omigod!!!!! Dean and Sam!!! ::flailage::

Definitely a turn for the better though, right? And if it's the senses!verse, we get two more parts? :)

Yes! A turn for the better alright, see I am capable of slowly ending the angst aren't I? ;) And yeah.. definitely two more parts to come hon. Thank you so very much for reading and reviewing! *hugs* :)

Dare I hope that Sammy is getting better?! *pleading puppy dog eyes*

I absolutely love this little series. It's breaking my heart and making me all squishy inside at the same time. (it absolutely makes me go all girly when Dean calls Sam 'kiddo', serious heart pounding, gut twisting, 'i think i'm gonna ball' girly!)

Can't wait for more. I need to see Sammy get better!

Yes he is!! He will be whole by the time I end this series hon, promise :)

it absolutely makes me go all girly when Dean calls Sam 'kiddo', serious heart pounding, gut twisting, 'i think i'm gonna ball' girly!

:D I kinda like it too when Dean uses such endearments for Sam.. like baby boy and kiddo :D When Dean said "you okay, little brother?" in the ep Something Wicked, I nearly died from the insane happiness I felt haha ;)

Thank you so much for reading hon :)

This is getting more and more interesting by the chapter! I seriously look forward to each new installment. I can't wait to read more!

Thank you so much hon!! Will try to update soon :)

Seems like maybe the boys have found a way to communicate after all? :)

Nicely done.

Yes they have!! I might do a little more explanation of the ritual later but the crux is that Dean can now hear Sam's conscious thoughts. It will get better and better from this point on. Thank you so much for reading hon :)

yet again, another wonderful addition to this series! I absolutely love it! well done!

Thank you sweetie! :) And also thank you for friending me back today! I've been thinking of paring my list down because i can't seem to get around to reading and responding to everyone's posts... but in the end I didn't have the heart to make any edits at all *facepalm* ;) Anyhow.. rambling sorry :) I'm glad you're enjoying this series hon. cheers :)

The more I read, the more I love it! (Pardon me... I'm feeling terse...)

No problem! Thanks for reading hon :) I'm glad you like it.

OMG! Sense!verse!

“Always put that on before you lay him out, so he is never looking up at the blank ceiling at any time. You got that?”
It’s been three months and twelve days and Bobby is starting to lose hope. But Dean believes with all his heart that Sam is still in there, somewhere...

Dean will never give up on his Sammy!

“C’mon, work with me here little brother, or you’re going in the back. You wanna ride shotgun don’t you? Don’t you Sammy?”
Bobby sighs, can’t decide who his heart is breaking for more – Sam for the state he is in, or Dean for getting his hopes dashed over and over again.

I think I heard him, too! The Impala, she is good for him.

Bobby is crestfallen, he’s never been so drastically off the mark before. Maybe he is slipping in his old age.
The orderlies look at each other, but wisely keep their mouths shut, knowing better than to argue when the man’s in full-on overprotective big-brother mode.
Call Bobby… apologize…

Oh, Sam! It's like baby steps, yes?

I hate that I was so busy this month I didn't even know of this story until the sequel had a sequel!

I love your concept of the senses, from sight to sound to touch, and how Dean is handling everything. He's just on the edge of losing it, but he won't as long as Sam needs him.

You've outdone yourself, Babe! I can't wait to read more!

Thank you,
Alley

I hate that I was so busy this month I didn't even know of this story until the sequel had a sequel!
Hey don't worry about it sweetie. Much as we hate it, RL does come first :)

I love your concept of the senses, from sight to sound to touch, and how Dean is handling everything. He's just on the edge of losing it, but he won't as long as Sam needs him.
Heh the senses pattern sort of emerged on its own and I didn't realize it until I was writing this one haha ;) But yeah, Dean may be struggling inside but he will always be the stronger one for his little brother because Sam needs him. it's what I like best about this awesome character of Dean!

Thank you so much for reading and for your awesome feedback hon :)

I love this! Can't wait for more <3

Thank you!! Will try to update soon :)

Wow, okay, I adore this (all three of them, which I just read in quick succession) and I truly hope you write more. I'd love to see where this goes!

Thank you so much for reading and reviewing hon :) There will be two more parts now. Glad you're enjoying this! cheers.

This is great. I love the idea of Sam talking to Dean through his mind. I really want to see more of this series.

Thanks hon :) Glad you liked it. Will update hopefully soon..

I think this story is awesome^^ So, more please ;P

Thank you so much hon :) Updating soon as RL permits, I promise!

I am loving this! And I love how Sam is communicating with Dean. I can't wait for the next part!

:) Thank you so much for reading hon. Am glad you're liking it.. will update soon hopefully.

Is that a little glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel?
*crosses fingers* that you're gonna make Sam all better. His consciousness pleading with Dean not to leave him was just sooooo sad...

Loving this verse, look forward to more.

Yep it is :) It means Dean is going to keep trying and he won't stop until Sam is okay. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing hon. Glad you like it :)

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Sweetheart! Thank you so much for reading.. i know its angsty but things are starting to look up :) Thanks hon for your kind words. Love you too!! :) *hugs*

Ooooh, interesting.
Yay, Sam!
:)
Hehe.
*cuddles the boys*

Yep Sam's coming back :)) Thank you for reading hon.

What a cool idea!

I like that Sam is making Dean apologize for snapping a Bobby.

Thanks hon :) Well Dean didn't exactly snap, fact he didn't say anything. But inside he did blame Bobby for the "failure" of the ritual. And since now Sam's consciousness is directly tuned into Dean's... Sam could understand what he was feeling.

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